Worst day ever

Today was what I believe to be the worst day ever. I went to bed at 3:30 AM and slept for a grand total of 2.5 hours, waking up felt like hell, I had no breakfast, I caused hassle to my mom, I had a single $.75 pretzel for lunch, I lost all hope of going to the Forensics tournament next Saturday, and I could not go to track practice today. Now I'm home thinking about how bad the day was. Why did I go to bed at 3 in the morning? To be honest I don't even know. Time just goes by so fast like that. Okay, there's a reason - I procrastinated. Big time. An assignment, an AP World History outside reading assignment of "A History of the World in Six Glasses", was assigned 3 weeks ago before Thanksgiving, but of course I didn't get started until the FINAL DAY, which was yesterday. When I came home yesterday I promised myself to begin working as soon as I enter the door. I convinced myself that the assignment wasn't that much, it was only 8 questions paired with a 60 page reading, and I could just skim through the packet looking with the only purpose to find the answers because I don't have time to learn anything more than the answers to the questions......it wasn't what I usually would want to do...I liked to learn. But of course it coincidentally happened to be the day that the new Clash of Clans update came out, and I heard about this update for months - it was the most anticipated update, with a new donation menu that lets you donate spells aside from troops, and I thought that was going to be awesome, and it was going to have a new town hall level, level 11, and a new hero called the Grand Warden which looked weird but ability is overpowered, SO I could not resist slacking off a bit and playing some C.o.C. before starting my homework...Oh no, I forgot to put my town hall back inside! I've heard that with the new update farmers who put their town halls outside need to watch out, but I forgot to do it because I's so busy for the past days!! Wait...what was more important, I reminded myself, work or VIDEO GAMES? I felt silly again for being so concerned with a stupid game. I'll get to work as soon as I build this new base to protect my precious dark elixir, I thought. Mom came in and I quickly put down my phone and quit to the home screen to remove any suspicion that I was doing anything other than work, which was pretty obvious considering no pages or pens were present on my desk, other than my phone. She didn't scold me, just reminded me to start working. Whew, that was a relief. As soon as Mom was out of sight, or I was out of her sight I should say, I went back to designing my new Clash base. Oh the satisfaction. I know it would kill me later but I continued guiltily, lost in the game, away from reality. You know, now that I think back ---- zzz...I took an hour and a half long nap that was supposed to be just half an hour in between this writing, that's how tired I am ---- it really seemed ridiculous how I'm hiding from my parents' supervision. I know I have this huge time management problem, and I'm just as frustrated as my parents about it, yet I never improve because I'm cheating myself. I keep on telling myself that it's all going to be better tomorrow, that I would get my work done super early and go to bed at 9 and make up all the sleep I lose every single day, but it never ever worked out. I'm too lenient on myself and that's why I can't change my bad habits. This new year's resolution for me is going to be managing time in a better fashion, no doubt about it - or, you know what, don't even wait until New Year's, I need to start NOW! Postponing change, a change for the better, would not do any good, and it's just another excuse for being lazy. I have a feeling that the problem is my sense of time; it's off by miles. When the clock reads 8:00, I should be hurrying up to finish my work, and 9:00 is when I should be done. Instead, I cruise through the Internet, browsing Facebook, checking on every one of my 30 or so mobile games and making sure THEY're doing okay, instead of doing what I'm supposed to, or really the only things I could do if I don't want to DIE due to sleep deprivation. Haha. Instead of feeling the need to get my work done, the only thing I think when I see the clock read 10:00 is "I'm already running late, so why not allow myself to go later and enjoy a little more? It doesn't matter if I check Instagram for 5 minutes..." Little did I know that an Instagram check would turn into a session that would last me at least half an hour. The media puts on far too much sexual content. Anyway, I would not start to hurry even when the clock read 11:00, and 12:00, because I've stayed up this late before, and the deadline I set myself would only go later and later this way. And that's exactly how I ended up sleeping at 3 AM this morning. While I am certainly sluggish and unproductive, I still am very strict with myself regarding finishing all the work I need to finish and with great quality, so I force myself to finish EVERYTHING even at the cost of sleep time. Whelp, it's 10 PM. It's Friday so there's no reason to sleep later than I must, so let me make this my first day sleeping early in a long time. Good night, me. The first blog post has been a success in letting out thoughts rapidly, so I will continue writing here whenever I feel the need to.